Feeling old

I am missing the burning anger of youth, that drive that kept me on the front line against conservatism. It's not that I really stood for anything and I defined myself by what I stood against. Tear it down first and figure out what to replace it with later. But then wife and kids happened and I went undeground, hiding my extreme leftist tendencies in order to work in the normal conservative world of the corporate heirarchies. Slaving away to get that all important paycheck to take care of things like food, rent, girlscouts, daycare: the general shit required of a dad.



I don't begrudge my family my undercover subversive time but I have never been able to embrace the life of a suburban dad and I have watched the young generation with envy as they are free to go to concerts, rebel against authority, and in general live life with out having to worry to much about tomorrow. I guess it is just time for me to start getting angry with the idiots that run the world and pull my head out of the closet of sexual deviancy that I have been hiding in.